Last summer, Selena Gomez bagged on her tour and checked into a psychiatric facility in Tennessee, and in a new interview with “Vogue,” she explains why.
She says, “Tours are a really lonely place for me. My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious. I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage.
“Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable. I felt I wasn’t giving my fans anything, and they could see it.”
Part of that had to do with her fans getting older, “I was so used to performing for kids. At concerts I used to make the entire crowd raise up their pinkies and make a pinky promise never to allow anybody to make them feel that they weren’t good enough.
“Suddenly I have…people in their 20s, 30s, and I’m looking into their eyes, and I don’t know what to say… I felt I had no wisdom to share. And so maybe I thought everybody out there was thinking, ‘This is a waste of time.'”
@SelenaGomez spent 90 days last summer in psychiatric treatment after dark feelings surfaced during her “Revival” tour. “DBT has completely changed my life,” she says. “I wish more people would talk about therapy. We girls, we’re taught to be almost too resilient, to be strong and sexy and cool and laid-back, the girl who’s down. We also need to feel allowed to fall apart.” In her April cover story, Gomez speaks candidly about her path to mental wellness, social media fatigue, and the little things that make her happy (link in bio). Photographed by @mertalas and @macpiggott, styled by Camilla Nickerson.